Freaking out

I was left with the business last Friday.  I was not told what money we have or what I could buy.  I am so freaking nervous about this day.  I was able to hold off everyone's checks but one.  And it was a big one.  I have written the check and its all over now.  I do not know if the check is good or bad.  I just wrote it on a limb.  UGH!  I am putting my plan in place now to be able to work for my self.  It will take me a few years but I will make it!  I know there will be no less stress but at least I will be in control of it all.  I will not have to feel responsible for so many families and there survival.  Either way I have T minus 3 hours before I have a cold beer in my hand and getting ready to ride the tractor.  I know all this stress is not just work related.  I also have a large personal payment due on Monday that I am approx $600 short on.  But I have always been able to make my payments and I am still holding on to hope I make this one.  It is a draft and if I do not have the money in the bank I have been told that they will keep hitting my account until I do have the money.  So worst case is it will have to be made next Friday.  I just hate to make a payment late if I can help it.  Honestly this is the hardest position I have been put in for a long time.  I have got to figure out where all my money has gone this year.  Things where moving along great then I hit this wall.  Got to figure all this out.  Either way I will enjoy my night, me and my John Deere and my Beer.

avoiding subjects

I intentionally avoid subjects on this blog anymore because I do not know who may or may not be reading this.  Its kinda an open thing and in the past I had someone to tell someone else that I had a blog.  Well now I do not know if I can put all my dark deep secrets on here.  I have entertained the thought of doing another blog and just starting form scratch again but I have a bunch of views these days so I hate to leave people hanging out that have been following me.  But in the same token I wonder who it is that is looking at my blog because I am getting very few comments.  When I sit back and think on it there is no telling who has told who about this blog so I guess I will remain quiet.  I was going to talk about sex.  However I will keep it all to myself until I feel comfortable to put it on here or start over.  Ill stop on this note, I WANT SEX!

BOOKED

My trip is booked and we are going with an awesome couple.  Its still a ways off but not to early to plan and get excited.  Kinda gives me something else to look forward to.  I cant wait to see those glistening lights and breathe that night air.  I plan on a 72 hour binge!  I think I can pull it off.  I will try, that's for sure.  Only about 2 more days of me all up here in a bind here.  Then I will be relived.  Cant wait.  Got to do some mowing but its so freaking hot.  I might mow tonight.  I like to mow and drink beer.  Yea I think that might be what I do.  Hope the blogging world is doing well.  Peace out my friends until I blog again!

Struggling

This week is going to be something else.  I have all ideas I will acquire a few gray hairs by the end of the week.  All I can do is keep moving forward.

To lessen the stress of this week I have set a goal.  To be honest I think it is an impossible goal to reach.  In fact it may be the hardest goal I have ever set. So  I have till Sunday night to reach this goal.  I will keep you all updated if I reach it.  If I reach this goal I will be all smiles.  Just because.  We will see.

Just a great morning!

I was able to sit and talk with my oldest daughter this morning while listening to the thunder in the distance.  It just made for a great start to my morning.  After she left I got in the shower and just relaxed.  I let the water beat down on my back and head and took time to clear my mind and hear the water actually hitting my skin.  This may sound weird to some of you but to become so still and in time to the hear the water hitting your skin is just so relaxing.  My mind was clear and I was at peace.  After my zen shower I got dressed and headed out.  I stopped at a local drive threw restaurant and saw this hot young chick waving at me from her side view mirror.  I new the vehicle but thought that chick is way to young to be who I thought it was.  And of course the window came down and a threat was hollered to me from her.  I busted out laughing.  It was who I thought it was.  When I pulled up to the window I found out she had paid for my breakfast.  So sweet.  It was nice.  I decided to return the favor and pay for the lady behind me.  Just an act of kindness so maybe someone else day could be just as great as mine.  Today has been a great day.  It is now lunch time and still is a great day.  I think this day will continue to be great.

LOVE YOU ALL
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That was interesting.

SIDE NOTE

I really want to build my chicken coop.  But I promised my self I would not until the girls swings where done.  And I am currently building things for my niece and nephews and my mother.  This is why the swings are not done.  But the guinea pigs we got have been keeping my girls busy as of now.  And it is so freaking hot outside.  Anyway I am thinking of names to name my coop.  This keeps me settled while I wait.  I am thinking "cluck you" or "Cackle Shack"  But really want to use a Band name or song.  Still thinking.

Changes

Ever day I plan things they get changed.  This is why I have never really plan things.  I might plan a trip to somewhere but that does not mean the things I do on the trip will be planned.  Just sayin.  I do not plan on supper for the night.  I do not plan on weekend things.  I just go with the flow.  I always have things I want to do but I never plan.  Because to many times I have planned things others have screwed it up!! Just sayin!!

I want to go somewhere.

I really want to go on a trip.  I think I want to go to Disney World.  I need some money.  I am working my ass off trying to save.  I think its time for my wife and I to take a trip by ourselves.  I would like to go to the Food and Wine Fest in Disney.  Just trying to decide on things.  At the same time I want to pay off this debt and flip houses.  If I could flip some houses Disney would be no issue.  So I'm stuck, Kinda.  Just going to keep working my ass off.

Side Note:  I am almost finished putting together my nieces play house.  It is a small prefab from Sams.  After that I plan to build a boat sandbox for my two nephews.  Super excited about it.  Then after that I will be building a planting counter for my mother and starting on the loft in the shop.  My Mom showed me a picture of a planting counter she wanted that had a sink and a window pane in it.  I was able to buy these things this weekend for $8.  I love junk shopping especially when I see it as a nice master piece.  I might post some pictures once I am finished.  We will see.  Hope the blogging world is doing well.  Peace love and happiness to you all.

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What a morning (Late posting this)

Lets start with my night.  I went to a local race track with a couple of guys and watched a race.  I didn't get home till 11:30 last night.  As I figured there where 3 people in my bed so I was forced to the couch. I didn't sleep at all.  I am still coughing so much and just do not sleep.  I awoke many times from all my coughing and I have cramped my side from all the coughing.  It hurts pretty bad if I turn the right way or cough today.  So this morning I got up and got ready, Carried the girls to the summer sitter and took off to work.  I was to meet my father to go look at a couple of houses on a dealership that has been closed down.  Ever one always calls us to clean up there mess LOL.  So I get there of course I'm in my flip flops, shorts and my beach shirt.  My normal apparel for work.  I am greeted by a well dressed gentleman.  I shook is hand spoke and we walked to the house to be looked at.  While inside I noticed that there was a customer inside.  We sent the customer to one of our other locations and continued looking at the first house.  Then to the 2nd house.  That is where I learned that the gentleman that shook my hand was the owner of a house manufacturer.  Interesting I thought.  Why would he be here?  Then I learned that the other guy was a sales rep.  Was very confusing as to why these two gentleman where showing us these two old houses.  After talking and conversation It was noted by the sales rep that we are a volume dealer and even though there are 2 other people looking at these houses they both would like to see our company get this location.  That's when it all started to come together for me.  See as I have said before we are a well known company in our business.  Not because we want to be.  We would rather fly under the radar.  Make our money and just live life.  But when it all came down to it.  This manufacturer wants us to buy this lot and carry his product.  Its amazing that these opportunities fall at our feet like this.  Just makes us feel good about how we do business and how we are perceived in the eyes of our competition and manufacturers and also out contractors.