I do not want to be here.

I am so tired and want to go home.  I am sitting at work waiting on 6 o' clock.  I laid down on the couch last night at around 7.  I got up and ate a little at 9 and went right back to the couch.  Slept till this morning.  "Work hard play harder" is my motto and I have been living by this sense I told my wife that I was having an affair.  It has been a year this past Wednesday.  At least that's what I was told.  So if that was so then today a year ago was when my "mistress" (as I have heard her referred to) told me that she could never see me again.  Just a lot of thoughts going on in my head today.  Nothing bad and nothing wrong.  Just grateful.  Grateful for many things.  Some I may not should be grateful for... Some I know I should be grateful for.  If I could say one thing to the world.  Make sure you know who you can trust.  Trust is a hard thing to come by.  If you need a friend to keep a secret for 10 years make sure they will.  Make sure they understand how important it is for things to be kept a secret for that long.  Cause all it takes is them telling one other person your secret and then its out.  So in other words.  Choose whom you trust.  I have trusted many.  And they have trusted many.  Yet some whom are trusted are not willing to keep secrets.  I hope this rant makes sense.  If anyone gets mad or upset about this then they have misread this post.  Nothing I write should be taken personal... What I write should be taken with a Bigger mind set.  signing off for the weekend I think.  Later

So tired

In the past 7 days I have driven for at least 40 hours.  I also have worked for 30 hours.  I have seen 5 races, a concert, been to the casino twice and drank at least 72 beer.  Im back at work today and pushing through.  Still want to tell you all about the race the casino and the life of this guy you all call Bigger!  Great Great Times.  Maybe tomorrow.  We will see.

Thank You blogging world

I want to start with a huge thank you to my blogging friends whom read and comment on my blog.  Several years back I had two great blogger friends. We spoke and commented weekly on our blogs.  I know one of them passed away and the other disappered I am thinking the worse for her too. I plan on checking out your blogs this week.  I have been slack.  Hopefully later today I can tell you all about our weekend.  It was awesome!

Exciting!

I just want to talk.  Have had a great week and it keeps getting better.  I want to start with women.  That one who wore her pants tight and obvious didn't have on underwear or if she did they where thongs.  Yea I was looking.  And the other lady whom I have always thought was so cute that hair and those thin lips.  Umm Umm.  And that little dance I saw you do.  Yep it was killer.  Being surrounded by all that beauty makes me smile.  Oh and the lady whom was cute but knew her shit didn't stink.  Oh I laughed to myself.  Bless you lady.  Was so good to see old friends and people of the past.  Oh and that one red head.  Yep was nice to finally see you and not behind a counter.  Any way thats my lady rant for today.  Next is about the weekend.  I see gambling drinking and racing happening.  I will update on this next week some time.  If I have time.  I have a lot I need to do.  As always its mainly work but not all of it.  Im ready to get my drink on.  I have a goal to digest around 60 beer this weekend.  Hope to go for 72 but I have to keep my composure.  SO I will get back with all yall next week.  Wait Wait.  Also the blonde who sent me that picture.  I loved it :-* to you!

UGH

Long night ahead of me.  I have to work late to catch up so I can enjoy my weekend and my next week.  Plus if all goes well I will have a surprise for the family soon.  I am super excited about it.  I am sure I will hear a lot of lip about part of it but hey, its my family and my children so suck it!

Dierks Bentley - Somewhere On A Beach

Monday?

Something is up with me.  I dont feel right.  Something isnt right.  I didnt sleep at all last night.  I tossed and turned a lot.  Thats not like me.  Somethings up.  Got to figure this all out.

Going Crazy

At this moment I have 42 deals I am looking at.  As the boss has said we are looking at the best year we have every had.  These deals do not include the new lot we have opened.  it brings to me a great question.  Im trying to figure out how to handle my future.  I see us expanding quiet a bit.  I see 3 or 4 more stores being opened and succeeding.  This has been the plan the whole time.  My concern is once we get that large we will be looked at as a very successful company and the ones in the business know that once you get like that you start getting looked at and asked to be bought out.  my boss is already great friends with the high ups.  I say high ups loosely.  He is in constant contact with owners of many large companies that have already bought out many competitors or have been part of the competitors shutting down.  Either way I see us growing and expanding and then being offered a deal that we wouldn't turn down.  So then I am out of a job.  If it where to happen in 10 years I would be 44.  I mean really where does a 44 year old construction guy go?  He goes no where.  So do I step out on my own?  do I take a chance? do I stay here for the ride? Im so confused in life.  I have told the boss that if certain things did not happen I was going out on my own,  this is on our extra adventures.  Do I go ahead?  I feel I have a backer or two.  But then again Im not sure.  Who the hell knows.  I will continue to pray and think till I make a decision.  Peace out Blogging world.

We need lows

you cant appreciate your highs with out your lows.  Im on a low.  Been this way.  Dont even know why.  Either way back to work for me I have 15 more mins then I can start drinking.  The drink always gives me highs.

Rain Rain

Well this will hold me up.  But I can make due.  Cause I am the man!!