curiosity

You ever just wandered about things?  Like nothing in particular but just things.

OMG side note - my aunt is acting like a 3 year old

Ok back to typing.  Do you ever just wander.  mind lost in a fog of sorts.  Thinking on good times and bad.  Just smiling at the thoughts of stupidity.  All the drinking and gambling.  All the late nights trying to win it back.  All the times you spent what you didn't have.  Just wandering aimlessly at what might have been or what could have been or so.

I can say I am very horny.  Yes I know you all could care less.  But I am.  Don't know why but I am.  Maybe I forgot to take a pill yesterday.  I think the pills take away my sex drive.  Who knows.

Talking about things.  I have not done anything lately.  I haven't made any hooch.  I haven't played cards.  I haven't been to the casino.  I haven't done anything wrong.  I haven't flirted with a woman.  I haven't looked at another woman.  I haven't even cleaned the shop.

All my haven'ts made me thing about the fact I have quit smoking.  It was an accident.  Which people look at me funny when I say that.  But seriously I didn't want to quit.  I really miss it.  Life is so much more boring with out it.  But I guess when i see that I have saved $500 since the first of the year I guess its worth it.  I done know.  When I go out to grill I use to smoke.  It was my friend, it was my partner on the deck.  But now not so much.  I just stand there and look around.  Not as much fun.  UGH.  I don't want to go back to smoking.  I want something to replace the fun it was.

Some say curiosity killed the cat.  I think curiosity made the cat smarter.  Besides how do you learn by not being curious.  It is surely a struggle to learn with out curiosity.  I find myself curious of things but never knowing.  One day i may learn but today dosen't seem to be the day