Last minute

I have always enjoyed flying by the seat of my pants.  Its a lot less disappointment in life.  If you plan something and it doesnt go right you feel that its bad but if you have no plans then no matter how it goes everything is fine.  This is my thought. on it.

With that being said the wife and I have had some last minute ideas and we are excited.  I will tell you all more later.  Maybe Tuesday of next week.

Celebrating

So its my birthday. I am working which is fine.  Had an awesome weekend.  This is all.

curiosity

You ever just wandered about things?  Like nothing in particular but just things.

OMG side note - my aunt is acting like a 3 year old

Ok back to typing.  Do you ever just wander.  mind lost in a fog of sorts.  Thinking on good times and bad.  Just smiling at the thoughts of stupidity.  All the drinking and gambling.  All the late nights trying to win it back.  All the times you spent what you didn't have.  Just wandering aimlessly at what might have been or what could have been or so.

I can say I am very horny.  Yes I know you all could care less.  But I am.  Don't know why but I am.  Maybe I forgot to take a pill yesterday.  I think the pills take away my sex drive.  Who knows.

Talking about things.  I have not done anything lately.  I haven't made any hooch.  I haven't played cards.  I haven't been to the casino.  I haven't done anything wrong.  I haven't flirted with a woman.  I haven't looked at another woman.  I haven't even cleaned the shop.

All my haven'ts made me thing about the fact I have quit smoking.  It was an accident.  Which people look at me funny when I say that.  But seriously I didn't want to quit.  I really miss it.  Life is so much more boring with out it.  But I guess when i see that I have saved $500 since the first of the year I guess its worth it.  I done know.  When I go out to grill I use to smoke.  It was my friend, it was my partner on the deck.  But now not so much.  I just stand there and look around.  Not as much fun.  UGH.  I don't want to go back to smoking.  I want something to replace the fun it was.

Some say curiosity killed the cat.  I think curiosity made the cat smarter.  Besides how do you learn by not being curious.  It is surely a struggle to learn with out curiosity.  I find myself curious of things but never knowing.  One day i may learn but today dosen't seem to be the day

Just Because

Things are not always as they seem.  But sometimes they are.  I feel for my buddy.  He just lost his father.  It sucks but his father is better off now.  At least I hope he is.  See he is not a Christian and it hurts me to now know where he ends up.  As for other things I guess I am okay.  Work is not easier but is doable.  Girls stay gone quiet a bit.  So I am home alone quiet a bit.  But that is okay.  I am still a dance dad. Kinda looks like I will have about 10 more years of being a dance dad.  Thats ok with me also.  I enjoy things my kids enjoy.  Had a message from a friend the other day.  That was nice.  Hadn't spoke to them in a while.  I didn't respond.  Going to sell my truck I guess.  Need to at least.  but have to get somethings fie don it first.  Been driving my dads truck lately.  Its okay.  I kinda miss my truck really.  But that is just how it is.  Any way just checking in.

I am not made for this shit.  I don't understand why people cant say things to me.  Why do things have to be done by others.  Fuck this.  I am not in a mood for it.  I am not cut out for all this.  FUCK IT ALL

Living life

I want a man cave.  I am trying to figure out how to have one.  That is all.

confused

I am a little confused on things.  I like to drink.  This has been mentioned many times on my blog.  But as of late I find it hard to get a buzz.  I wonder am I drinking to much?  Am I not drinking enough?  Last week I downed around 20 beers in one night, in fact in approx 5 hours.  Just to never get that buzz I love so good.  That night I hadnt even eat.  Last night I down 10 beers in 2 hours.  I did eat, but still nothing.  I have no need to drink beer anymore if I am not going to get a buzz.  I just hate to start drinking that clear again.  But I will.  We will see.

Earlier in Dec.....

So busy but yet stale......

This new position comes with a lot more than I use to handle.  Pretty much doing what i was except riding the roads and added all this other stuff to do also.  Meetings every  morning.  check in through out the day.  constant phone calls, other dealers, manufacturers, insurance, sells, advertisement.  I have been more stressed but I see it easing up a little bit.  Things are doing ok.  I need more deals that is for sure.

As far as life, things are great.  I think this will be easy Christmas for us and I think the first of the year will be in good shape also.  We will see.  so close on some things but yet so far away on others.

I just felt like blogging so here it is.

helping hand

We have recently decided to help a family we know in a hard spot.  Things never go as you wish but they are moving forward.  We will see how it turns out.

I took it

I took the new position in my company.  I thought long and hard about the things that would have to happen and decided it is for the best.  The great thing.  The  great thing is after I get all things set in motion I should have more free time to do other things.  I am nervous but I know it is for the best.  We will see how it goes.