Breaking Through

I have recently posted about the depression I have been facing.  I have broke through all that though.  I am on top of my game and paln on staying that way the rest of the year.  I have a field trip Friday and I have poker after Thanksgiving.  We will see how all this goes.  As for all of you.  I hope you are doing well!!

half and half

I think all this depression has been from my constant checking into the political scene.  Also left over touches on the Matthew hurricane.  I feel some better today.  Only time will tell what all is going on I guess.

Down

It is taking over my mind and body.  I have fault this depression for some time.  I am mentally strained and worn out.  I have tried to overcome it.  I have tried to work it all out.  But it is overtaking me.  I am mentally and physically depressed.  I have fault it and fault it.  I will overcome it but it is really driving me down at this time.  I have to overcome.  I will overcome.  I am in a battle!

Nice Break

This weekend was a nice break from the norm.  My parents where in the mountains and we had the whole farm to ourselves.  Now we did miss them don't get me wrong but could just do and not worry.  The stew fest was awesome.  I always love sitting around with the fire dept guys and talking, learning, comparing, you know straight guy talk.  It was just an awesome day to fellowship.  Saw so many friends and family.  Everyone "loves" me and "misses" me.  People really do care and truly miss us.  It felt so good.  We didn't win which was fine.  Just being there enjoying the fellowship was so worth it. After the stew fest I climbed my tail back into bed and went to sleep.  I was tired from all the beer I drank the night before and being up at 5am.  This is not my norm.  I got a good nap and then woke up to go burn the hole and drank beet with my BIL.  We hung out for a while and then I went back home and back to sleep.  With the time change being Saturday night I felt real good Sunday morning.  My wife went to church and gathered up our kids that had been staying off Saturday night and I stayed home to get a jump start on the house work.  I washed clothes moved the cooker, brought the tree over from the shop went to the store.  Cant remember what else I did but I did a lot to get jump started.  After all the girls got home we started to rearrange the living room so we could get our tree up.  We deep cleaned the living room and cleaned the Guineas cage.  We moved to the kitchen and on trough the house.  After getting the majority of it all done I asked my wife if I could go to the shop.  Of course she said yes.  And I started back on the 2nd wall.  I am proud to say the 2nd wall is laid out ready to be nailed together and then erected.  Still have a ways to go but after talking to my wife I think I may be close to finish framing in this week.  It feels it has taken me for ever. and it has.  But I have done it all by myself so thats where the time comes in.  having to rig up so one end of a board will stay while you nail the other board and so on.  Either way back to work for me.

WOW!!

Welcome Welcome,

I would like to welcome my readers from France and Canada.  Wow  I would have never thought I would have readers form other countries.  I cant imagine what in the world I you all would think was interesting about my blog but I am very excited about this.

Now to continue with what I was going to blog about.  This weekend.  It would seem I live for the weekend but this is untrue.  I actually feel i stay so busy that the weekend is just a day at the end of my work week and another start into a new work week.  This weekend is no different however I am doing something that you all know I love to to.  Cooking!!  This weekend I will cook approx 15 gallons of Brunswick stew for a minor competition in a town close to mine.  This will be I think the 4th  or 5th year I have done this with my current partner.  This year we are going to tweak the recipe a little.  It honestly makes me a little nervous but I know we will pull it off either way.  So this is my Saturday morning.

Oh! my baby girl gets to go on her girls night out Friday night also.   She is super excited about this.  I have been joking with her about how I am going to take her place.  Of course with this being a "girls" night she says I cant.  So sad LOL.

Now on to the shop.  I have finally gotten one wall up.  Now I may have mentioned this before.  But my goal this weekend after the Stew Fest is to get this other wall built and up.  If I can do this I will probably start on the kitchen.  Either way I finally see progress in the shop.  And hope fully I can have it all finished by March other than some painting.  We  will see.

Again Welcome to my new readers.  Post a comment.  Ask questions.  I look forward to see where this blog goes!!

Well.......

The weekend was grand.  Girls party went off with out a hitch.  The trunk or treat was awesome.  And I finally was able to go through the haunted house.  Now the weekend was also bland.  I laid in bed most of Sunday and a lot of Saturday.  I am sick.  At least that is what my nurse says.  She can not pin point what is wrong but says my body is fighting off something and that's why I feel the way I do.  I have to agree with her.  I do not feel the best.  I am clammy and think I am fighting off a fever also.  I am sweating constantly and have light headiness.  My nerves are bad also.  I am nervous for why I have no clue.


With all this being said the major thing that is bothering me is I am horny.  I am really horny.  I have had sex twice in a year, I think it is.  So I feel a little bit of me is dying inside.  And theres nothing I can do.  Well I guess I could do somethings but I am trying my best to be a good boy.  I have not said anything or acted anyway or done anything that would be considered wrong against my wife in a long time.  I do not plan on doing anything wrong either.  Although I do believe I have had a few offers. But I will stand strong.  Wow, that just made me think about something.  Guess we will see what happens.  If I had any thoughts of doing wrong I do believe I could fulfill one of my fantasies this week.  Oh, I might just fantasies and masturbate tonight.  LOL LOL Good grief I will be a good boy!! I will be a good boy!!  I will be a good boy!! I will be a good boy!!

Funny thing, I am sitting here coughing and sweating and its like 68 degrees in here.  Yep I am sick, If not phisically I am mentally Peace out!

It begins

And so the weekend begins.  We will see what it will hold.  Peace our Blogging world.

Overcome

Just so overcome with things.  First of all, All the flooding has gone down.  Our office was spared by about 1 inch from what we could tell.  So close.

Today I shook hands with a contrator that will not be working for us anymore.  Long story just hate to see him go.

I have been trying to write this post for about 2 weeks now.  Any way.  Life goes on.  Big plans this weekend.  We will see how it goes.  Probably will run into people I use to know.  If that makes any sense.  I will carry on with life I guess.  Just blah.  A little on the depressed side.

Nothing new or exciting.  No sex, No drinking, No exercise, NO life really.  Just here

Survival

We survived the storm.  Wasn't to bad on the farm.  Of course now the water is rising up around everyone and there is more damage to come.  We lost at least 10 pecan trees and once its all said and done I think we will have about 15 that has to come out.  I hate that.  I really do.  But more than that I hate all the people that are displaced by this flood.  In 1999 we had the flood of the century.  A flood that is only suppose to happen every 500 years or so.  This one may be a few inches deeper.  The amount of water dropped was unbelievable.  So many swift water rescues so many lucky people to be alive.  The scanner was non stop.  Water in places water has never been before.  Now its time to watch as the river slowly overtake everything in its path while knowing there is nothing you can do.  Just watch this large body devour half the town in a slow agonizing kinda way.  Oh we were without power for only 3 days I think.  So that's was not bad at all.

In my personal life I am just here.  Just struggling to understand why I am here.  One day I will be something.  One day I will matter.  One day, I may be dead, but I will be appreciated.

Past, Present, Future

Past

Well the costume contest went great,  We didnt win but everyone loved the costume.  A little boy wearing a kissing booth won the contest.  It was a great costume.  In fact there where 4 great costumes there in my opinion.  On top of all that we will be sending our daughter on a "girls night out" We won the winning bid on it too.  What a great night.  We also where able to get 2 movie baskets, a grilling basket and a kitchen basket.  I also got jokingly hit on my probably my favorite teacher.  Finally!!  She took long enough.  Then Saturday I labored all day picking up limbs then going to another auction and my nephew one a $500 gift certificate for a gun.  I then went home with 6 females.  Needless to say I jetted lol.  I got on the tractor and rode till 2;30 ( I was out of fuel) then church on Sunday.  What a super great weekend.  It was so awesome!

Present

I am so sore.  I think a combination of picking up limbs and riding the mowers so much.

Future

Matthew is coming.  It is going to bust NC wide open!  Ugh I am dreading this.  Lots of work to do.  I am preparing to be with out current for a week.  We went without current one time for 9 days and with out water for several days also.  I will be prepared.  Beer and Cigs for sure.  We will see what happens.

peace out blogging world